Oh the tests of being married and having a family, albeit a little one….

We just discovered late last week that hubbs would be sent to the US of A for almost a MONTH :( Though try as I may to be understanding about it, I dread being alone with the lil girl. Not that I am not confident of taking care of her myself, it’s just the thought of being without the hubbs for a whole month brings on the shivers… he’d be gone almost throughout puasa time and will only be back 2 DAYS before raya!!!!! There goes our big plan to celebrate proper raya this year, as it is our first year with lil Ayra. Hubbs is trying hard to talk to his boss to sh0rten his trip so we won’t be left alone for so long… dah la he’ll be leaving on his birthday at that :( :(

Another test came soon after. Thursday we received a call from our maid who has been taking care of Ayra while we work, that her father is critically ill and she’d like to return home to Indonesia to visit him for a while. We had to make last minute flight bookings for her to go and return (THAT is another story altogether).. though she’d like to return for 3 weeks or more, we had to shorten it to 2 weeks as hubbs would be leaving in 2 weeks’ time and we really need her then. And since it is a last minute thing, we didn’t manage to find a temporary TRUSTED caretaker for lil Ayra… :(  Both my in-laws are still working, and the brothers and sisters at home are still school-going kids, and my parents and siblings are far away from us… an aunt we hoped could help went back to her hometown too… Our last minute final decision was that we both had to take 1 week unpaid leave each to take care of her at home.. though it is quite a harsh decision, I am sure that is what any parents would do for their child.. Ayra is still too small for us to simply send her to any nursery and such, and this way, we wouldn’t be worried sick about her while at work.. we can ensure she is getting the best care..

Hubbs is taking the first shift this week and I will be taking next week off to be with Ayra as hubbs would need to prepare for his trip next week…. Hmmm…. I seriously still wonder if we’re making the right decision, but then again rather than to find a temporary caretaker and waste our money and be worried sick about Ayra, this is still 10 times better huh… the sacrifices you’d have to make as a parent :)

I would definitely find it hard to concentrate on work this week.. with all the changes we’d have to endure.. but we are trying our best here…… right now, I’m really crossing my fingers so that hubbs will be able to find a way to NOT leave us for that long! Puasa time, almost raya time, for sure I’d be left a bit more ‘emo’ than usual… though I’d still be with the in-laws, it is just not the same without your very own family huh… and my own parents are far away….

So here’s to reaaaallllyyy hoping and praying that things will go our way……. please God help us…

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