Hubbs already went last night.. and I have this BIG GAPING EMPTY hole in my heart right now :(
We sent him to sentral instead of KLIA coz he said it will be much sadder to bid farewell at the airport and I couldn’t agree more.. plus the fact that lil Ayra was not herself last night… my goodness it is as if she can sense something is going wrong.. she has been quite difficult to handle the past one week.. she won’t go to sleep, she will cry and cry when she is sleepy until she almost turns blue.. she will refuse the nummies, the bottle, the pacifier, she will refuse everything!!! My mother told me she can sense stuff since she drinks my milk and whatever I feel she can feel.. I am not sure how true that is, but if it is true, I can sure kick the hell out of myself for causing that to her.. sob sob! I just need to get this feeling out of me then.. but howwwwwwwww…
We learnt the hard way never to mess with kiddo’s bed time.. on Friday we sent BIL, MIL and FIL to the airport as they are going to UK for 2 weeks.. their flight was at 1 a.m… we thought kiddo can sleep in the car on the way and back from the airport.. her usual bedtime is before 10, but we left the house at 1030p.m. She was fine and slept on the way… but she got cranky an hour after we reached the airport… and she still slept on the way back, but when we got homeeee… she bawled and bawled her heart and lungs out!!! She must be really really exhausted the poor baby and couldn’t sleep.. she arched her back when I tried to offer milk.. she refused the bottle, refused to be rocked, refused the pacifier… my God we were going out of our minds… we apologized profusely to her for doing that to her… changed her, wiped her down, I held her close and recited some ‘zikir’ to her… only after about half hour did she stop crying and accepted my milk and I rocked her gently to sleep…..
She has been doing the same thing, on the night we left her with the maid (the maid gave us a scare that day she was supposed to return, she didn’t call, didn’t pick up our calls, and arrived home on her own after 5 HOURS after supposing to reach KL, I almost lost it thinking she’s not coming back!) and went out on a date to celebrate hubbs’ birthday, she did the same thing again last night :( What am I doing wrong??? What is happening?? Is this normal?? Some people say it’s her ‘changing months’ (she is turning 5 months in 3 days), some say it’s because she has become more attached to me after a week of being with me only, some say it’s that she can sense her daddy’s leaving.. which is it?? I worry I might lose my patience, what with my current state of mind…. uwaaaaaa….
Does any of you have any tips on how to make this weird queasy feeling in my gut and stomach go away?? I hate the feeling…… and I have 25 days to wait….. this is really hard…. especially since I have to mind the lil bro and sisters at home too… parents-in-law will be back in 10 days time.. and I am lonelyyyyyyyyyyy :(
yan..:( sedihnya baca ni..but keep in mind, bulan2 puasa ni pahala nya berganda..insyaAllah, hikmah melimpah2 utk u and fmly pas ni.. hang in there, ok? kiteorg sume support u, doakan u..:)
i really feel for u :( sedih. zyi is right, insyaAllah pahala berganda though. do hang in there.
ok, now lets get down to business. we know u must figure out a way to feel better coz yes its true, babies can “sense” things. i believe this (esp. breastfeeding babies!). i don’t know what’ll help but u gotta role your sleeves up and maybe make a list of some things u enjoy doing….? have family or friends over..? go out bukak puasa with family/friends? u can’t go on 25 days feeling this blue, hun. maybe have a family member stay with you while hubs is not there…? bribe em, cojole them, beg them..? jgn ambil hati ye with all my suggestions.. i was once suffering the blues too and gib was fussy all through that period and in the end i realised i was the only one who could make the situation better. motherhood can be so lonesome and challenging sometimes :( we’re rooting and praying for u!!
poor thing.. im sure its as hard on ur husband also,esp since its fasting month and all. takpe insyaAllah like zyi said, byk pahala u nanti.. sabar2 lah k. i really dunno how to help make the queasy and uneasy feeling go away but if u need anything we’re all just an email add away (though we’ve never met i somehow get this vibe that we’d totally hit it off hehe). anyway take care and byk2 bersabar k. i’m sure u and ayra will cope fine :)
i totally second Babybooned ideas & suggestions!(you’re such a postive thinker la dear!great to knw.)if u cant get out,get ur frens lepak w/ u,and those who wont mind/judge ur baby’s cry/mood.
anyhw kiddo’s mom,bout’ayra’s behaviour,probably TRUE,bcoz of her ‘changin month’ and her sense that her daddy’s away.mia was JUST like that when she was ard ayra’s age.lepas da,masuk 5,6mth..her mood gets better and better.
zyi: thanks dear… i pun berdoa utk diri sendiri hehehe.. insyaallah all will be ok
babybooned: i tried thinking of things i enjoy doing, like going out during weekends and all, but ayra is cranky when she misses her nap time so i pun takut nak bawak dia keluar :( about family members, i already tried my mom but she had to take care of my sick grandma so no go jugak.. uwaaaaaaa…
hetz: yeah i know it’s hard for him too… i get the vibe we will hit it off too dear! we’ve been at this less than a month kot and already we’re so close!
ira: oohhhh now i can’t wait for her to get older, but then i dont wanna wish her life away…. maybe once in a while i keluar bawak ayra, and some times i might leave her with the maid…. thanks for the heads up about ur girl too…
hope ur strong. what with one thing and another, tahu tahu dah raya! he’ll be back before raya kan?
btw, u’ve just bn tagged! :)
ain: yeah i replied the tag.. i hope to be strong too and do you know how to make 3 weeks zoom by???
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